bleh...

How long am I going to have to deal with this SHIT!!!!
I've had enough worrying when the next time Michael is going to crack his nut!

Every time I feel like things are going good, he has to go and have a dummy spit.. now I'm sitting here like a freeking child IN TROUBLE. 
why, IVE NO idea...

Yesterday he picked us up from Werrington station after spending the day with his kids and he was already frustrated I noticed when he was putting Koen's pram in the car.
I showed him how it goes and he snapped at me.
now today , 24 hours later he is still short, nasty and mean!!! The way he is treating me I feel like I have done something wrong, He always makes me fucking feel like this.. HE does something wrong and I get treated like shit because IM PISSED off he fucking pisses me off..
How fucking long am I ment to wait around for him to truly change.
I cannot go out anywhere or talk to anyone.
My friends all hate him and he hates them

I fucking hate my hole.. its never going to get better!

It does not seem to get be getting better, and when ever I think we are it goes in the opposite direction!
I cant keep him happy, he is too jealous and judgemental, and Bipolar....

I'm so so so sick of things right now, no money, no life, and now...... no car. One works but has no door, and one is not working at all.. fml

How long am I going to have to deal with this SHIT>
Ive had enough worrying when the next time Michael is going to crack his nut!

Too long...

Ok, so its been a while?

sure... who thought three kids would be such a fuss pot?

Not that Im NOT loving it.. or better yet, looking forward to another one , ONE day...
gosh did I just say that aloud... well I typed it.. :)