Soon.....

Somethings are just so complicated. 
I really don't understand how life can be great one moment and crappy the next.

I am so sick and tired of closing my eyes, grinning and baring it. Pretending Im "enjoying" it just so I can keep a calm and collected household.

Will it change?
Maybe

when?
I don't know :(

I am so confused, I thought I was mad... ready to go. 

but then I'm not. and I'm here

I want to be free... to do what I want without getting in "trouble"

Things will change soon.......

soon......